The 12 Days of Christmas has officially begun! I have always loved this time of year. It seems especially poignant now that my children come home for Christmas...... John Paul is here until January 9 when he returns to Carroll. Brennan flies home this Friday and will be here until he getes a date for the Reserves. But everyone will be home for a few weeks and I am a happy Mama.
At the same time, selfishly, ironically, I am feeling depressed. Not the holiday blues. It's somethimng else but I can't quite put my finger on it. Depression is a nasty cloud that can infiltrate the corners of my mind, heart, and soul. While I have battled it my entire adult life, I still don't fully understand it.
Many of those I love are struggling right now too. It is a year of loss, or of change, or of resignation for a number of people I hold dear. I am thinking of you, pulling for you, wishing I could do more. The holidays can be tough on a good year........
Oh Sally,
Please don't feel alone. Your leigon of fans and wellwishers who love you and pray for for many times a day want to see you beat this cancer intrusion that tries to occupy your life. You are without a doubt the strongest person we all know. You are a super role model for all those who face challenges in life. You are winning! You inspire all who know you. It will be great to have Brennan coming home this week to be with you, JP and Craig. We are waiting to serve and help you any way that we can.
Merry Christmas,
John O.
started a comment this morning after I saw your post and then got sidetracked—of course. But better late than never…
First off, Happy 12 days away from Christmas! Having both boys home is its own tiding of comfort and I am thrilled for you as Mama.
And with that, it makes sense that there are mixed emotions. Like you said, the holidays are tough when everything is good, so with so many things sort of ambiguous and unclear, I can completely imagine a cloud of sorts hovering in and out of your line sight. And that’s hard. And yet you completely get that others are shooing their own clouds out of the way and it’s in that place that I…